I will be the first to say that I am not necessarily a fan of change. I do realize change can be good....but that doesn't mean I'm too into it....Once I get used to something....I like things to stay that way....unless of course things are really bad....LOL
This being said, it seems like change is always occuring in my life. And although I don't like it....sometimes I'm thrown into it kicking and screaming....I still go with it....because really I have no choice....
And I know there are some things I won't like. And some things I will. There are some things I will miss. And some I can't wait to forget....but I truly believe in signs....and some things being to meant to be. So if this change is supposed to happen. Then so be it....
Who am I to fight fate, destiny, God....
But whatever happens....I will still pursue my dreams....try to reach all my goals....and live each day as a gift, because really....that's what it is....
I think I'm done for now....I must go off and catch up on my magazine reading....she says while thinking how the hell am I a pop culture expert who hasn't read any of the 30 or so magazines piling up on her night stand since April....shameful I know....the master procrastinator strikes again....I'm working on it! Jeez!
And I'm done....
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Hmmm....really Kitt?
I would say that I'm ashamed of the fact that I haven't blogged in over a month....I would, but really....I'm actually used to it by now....my procrastination is a nasty little demon I have to get under control! I think I'm going to google a 12 step program, because I sincerely have a problem with it....I mean seriously. I haven't written in anything in about nearly 3 weeks....it's quite pitiful for someone claiming to be a writer. I'm stressed (but that's nothing new, so it shouldn't stop my process), I'm busy (but no busier than usual), I'm sad (one of my friends died....a really good dude, but that's no excuse, he'd be telling me to get my arse up and write already!) So that's what I'm doing....well blogging....so I can vent....so I can write....properly....
Okay....here we go world (or really the few who grace my blog with their presence....you are greatly appreciated...)
What's really pissing me off right now is....ME! So I am really disappointed in myself for not working up to my full potential. But this is literally old news, so that's all I'm gonna say about that....Chick (she says talking to herself) please get it (it being whatever is not together @ the moment, and trust me this is a variety of things) together....now....today....A.S.A.P. I'm done...with that....
Other things they have been irritatiion as of late....
People who say they are your friends, but they are really not. Over the past couple of weeks I have been discussing this phenomenon of late....really its been happening as long as there have been friendships....but for me the subject has come up....again. I used to think I was pretty good @ dissecting my real friends from the not so real....sadly I have discovered, I am not as good as I once thought. While I am good @ getting rid of the totally obvious ones....there are certain people who've had me fooled...well no more! Out the door you go....I'm feeling like Jay-Z....on to the next....
What about the people I don't keep up with, that I should?.... We've been out of touch for no other reason than I constantly put things and people off...until tomorrow or next week or next month, and sadly sometimes next year. I've officially learned my lesson....one of the best (not perfect, because really no one walking this earth is) people I've known in this world, like ever.....died 3 weeks and 2 days ago.....& devastated isn't the word....I can't even think of what I am....but Mike taught me a lot things in the decade plus that we knew each other....the last thing he taught/showed me was...that if someone is really important to you, make the effort to spend time with them more often. And if someone really doesn't give a damn about you....do something nearly effortless, like get rid of them....save yourself a lot of heartache, and gain a ton more happiness....that lesson is learned....4 sho....(inside joke :-))
The last of my irritations.....people who say one thing and then do the other! What is that? Either you do it or you don't....Don't make me a promise and the back out with no explanation. I know stuff happens....things change....but @ least have the common courtesy to give me an explanation!!! I'd give you one, if the shoe were on the other foot....
So I'm done....for today....and here's hoping that I keep up with my blogging on a fairly regular basis...fingers crossed....
Okay....here we go world (or really the few who grace my blog with their presence....you are greatly appreciated...)
What's really pissing me off right now is....ME! So I am really disappointed in myself for not working up to my full potential. But this is literally old news, so that's all I'm gonna say about that....Chick (she says talking to herself) please get it (it being whatever is not together @ the moment, and trust me this is a variety of things) together....now....today....A.S.A.P. I'm done...with that....
Other things they have been irritatiion as of late....
People who say they are your friends, but they are really not. Over the past couple of weeks I have been discussing this phenomenon of late....really its been happening as long as there have been friendships....but for me the subject has come up....again. I used to think I was pretty good @ dissecting my real friends from the not so real....sadly I have discovered, I am not as good as I once thought. While I am good @ getting rid of the totally obvious ones....there are certain people who've had me fooled...well no more! Out the door you go....I'm feeling like Jay-Z....on to the next....
What about the people I don't keep up with, that I should?.... We've been out of touch for no other reason than I constantly put things and people off...until tomorrow or next week or next month, and sadly sometimes next year. I've officially learned my lesson....one of the best (not perfect, because really no one walking this earth is) people I've known in this world, like ever.....died 3 weeks and 2 days ago.....& devastated isn't the word....I can't even think of what I am....but Mike taught me a lot things in the decade plus that we knew each other....the last thing he taught/showed me was...that if someone is really important to you, make the effort to spend time with them more often. And if someone really doesn't give a damn about you....do something nearly effortless, like get rid of them....save yourself a lot of heartache, and gain a ton more happiness....that lesson is learned....4 sho....(inside joke :-))
The last of my irritations.....people who say one thing and then do the other! What is that? Either you do it or you don't....Don't make me a promise and the back out with no explanation. I know stuff happens....things change....but @ least have the common courtesy to give me an explanation!!! I'd give you one, if the shoe were on the other foot....
So I'm done....for today....and here's hoping that I keep up with my blogging on a fairly regular basis...fingers crossed....
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